thursday vibes (21 march) — This is all grooming you to be an authority.
Good morning baby!
Okay my babies. Today comes an ANCIENT test of yours that YOU KNOW. And this day is special because it’s like a graduation and we find out now if we are moving to something new or staying with something that still needs our attention. We either come out to offer something that is a gift, ready to now share, or we stay as the apprentice for a bit longer.
This is how we need to look at it when we have to stay in those learning situations longer than we would prefer – we must see that we are apprenticing and learning this shit REAL GOOD. I always say how I had to stay in the trenches for 14 years because I had to know all those poverty, scarcity, judgmental, losertown thoughts — and walk the healing journey to the end. I didn’t get to just intellectualize those aspects of life – I got in them real good and learned them to the core. 14 years.
But look at me now as this powerhouse of cosmic wisdom — and getting to sit here doing this badass work for you!! Like. DUDE. We can’t question any of it anymore. My main thing was I wanted to be a writer because it’s all I ever did but my first college journalism professor suggested I choose another major because she felt I DID NOT have gifts as a writer. So. I got a degree in fashion design and never shared my writing with anyone again until I shared it here, with you, 25 years later. No one heard my written words because I was told they had no value. I believed what they told me and kept them to myself – until I could keep them no more.
So at this point in history and with souls incarnating — where we are broken, we are to become exalted and an authority – it’s funny like that. So allow yourself to fall gracefully to your knees. It is not a bad thing when all is said and done.
moon phase of the day
BRING IT FORWARD. Once we reach the bright light of the full moon IT IS ON. Now we are to put things out there, show them what we got and put your steps towards new aspects of how you want your life to be. Emulate the full moon and shine your things brightly.
moon of the day
full moon in libra.
Decisions. Decisions. Doing the right thing. Thinking of others. Wanting things beautiful.
1: Energy is moving towards and igniting the themes of the other numbers.
8: Hold the Galactic Vision! Be positive and keep your eyes on the horizon. What you are putting out there is coming RIGHT BACK your way!
9: Something is ending and needing to be released. Have trust even though things feel confusing. Give away in order to receive.
I grew up with no support, no at home loving, no holding, no mama looking at me, thinking I was anything other than trash – and I was so beautiful. If you reach out to my hand now I may automatically pull it away, shyly at first, because I didn’t get to know compassionate touching as a foundational thing. I got no proper nurturing and support and I grew up like a resented weed, just in everyone else’s way. So I don’t naturally expect that I will be loved or even understand what being supported looks like FROM a foundational standpoint. My roots were never allowed to prosper.
BUT ——– look at the love and support I got on ALL SIDES of me now. Look at all of you who love me and who support me. Upon first impressions, I think many of you believe I had a different life than I actually did have. I came from zero and I now am a hero BUT zero birthed my hero and it’s what makes me special, I think. Because I walked this HARD LIFE, I can guide you safely to the other side when you find yourself, too, in the hard life times. Without walking life as a zero I couldn’t offer the vibration of knowing. And YOU walking life from the point of zero to hero is written in your story – the real story YOU are here to walk. So never again judge where you feel emptied. It’s not deserving of negative judgment.
Where we are broken
we become exalted
and an authority.
Allow yourself to
fall gracefully to your knees.
It’s not a bad thing.
Hear the message in my examples. You are not yet cooked and your ultimate dish is not yet complete – maybe. But that is NOT A BAD THING!!!!! And all the “bad things” are what makes you special and outstanding, anyway. If you can allow your mind to settle peacefully with that, then you can ride a quicker journey through the teachings of your soul. Surrender and you will get there in half the time. See the things as bad and out to hurt you — and the journey will take longer to get you there.
BUT. As I started this reading, MANY of you around this day take steps finally into an exalted expression of your own, where you now are older, wiser, and ready to show the world how much you have learned from the journey. Step bravely and know this IS your time. You are fully cooked.