thursday vibes (4 april) — Today you are to saturate in your dream.
A body that feels
FEELS something is wrong
in situations that are off.
All bodies can feel
Some just need to be reminded.
Okay baby! I want to start each day in softness because your spirit needs this soft care as you move through things VERY DELICATE inside of you this week. You may feel beaten up and battered but it’s all getting you better, I promise! This vulnerable way is the better way. But to feel can be overwhelming, too. This Navajo woman I talked about yesterday told me she always tries not to cry and holds back because she feels it’s a weakness or what she is not allowed to do because she held responsibility for her sister’s death. But thank goodness I finally was able to give her the permission to share what wants to come out of her and to release – like toxins held deep — and for her, for 40 years.
So expect to feel in strong ways but just know this needs to happen for you and there is no reason to stop the flow, however it needs to express. When Moon Bear was killed I said, “oh my god” over and over for about 3 days. I couldn’t turn it off, as it was some self-soothing thing to support me in facing that my little girl was gone.
So feel, my baby, but don’t think it’s anything bad. Remember, you are still learning and still growing to be the teacher in the ways you long of being and this is just finding out where you are not moved to the other side in regards to healing things that stick with you and keep you plummeting into feeling that you don’t have any value and that no one will love you or want what you do.
That is all so wrong!! You just are still cooking, my love. And no one enjoys undercooked pasta or unripe avocado. So don’t rush getting to the other side. When you get to the other side, you are done and cooked, and you will know it. But healing is a downtime process and it’s why so many of us feel like we need to rest or pull away or get alone or be with only our own energy. Go into your own world and allow the healing. We are in rapid energy spaces so it all will be worth it and NONE of any of this is a mistake ——- no matter how we try to interpret it from our man-made human states.
Spirit human knows there are universes beyond this one and that all things essentially tie together to create a higher message of movement. And our parts cannot be known until we leave our time on earth and get to that other, bigger side. For now we move from small other sides within chapters of our lives where, just like in the books we read, we have no idea what journey we will be taken on next, and in books that is what we love.
Today you are to saturate in a dream and in the thought of it manifesting. You need to sit in the details and in the visuals of something that is what you most desire in your life for this next leg of the journey. We begin again, but with A LOT of pain and suffering and thinking and feeling not like ourselves for so long and NOW —– we are not going to fuck around with our egos leading the way because we now are all the student – like for real — as the universe matches our personal growth 10 to 1.
So like each 1 you move forward, the universe will bring you 10 surprises of awesome things. And not that we all really deserve to be so rained down on, karmically, like this, but we need this. We need this to pull us through and get us dreaming again — moving energy around what we dream for. To move into the new, we must saturate in the new. To live our dreams, we must saturate in the thoughts, visions, and feelings of our dreams coming true.
I manifested everything you see me living from feeling it while I lived in the gutter miles and years away from it. When I had thoughts and doubts that I was too wounded and damaged beyond repair, I instead looked off into the horizon and saw myself as a teacher, living in a beautiful home, feeling loved, supported, and valued where I was finally seen as important – and not just trash because some people who were hurting ended up showing me I was.
And while I had to buy things of not high quality, I dreamed of how I would one day only get things of integrity and handmade and organic — and with nothing that exploits anything. I thought about it while I was miles and years away from actually living it.
As I suffered, I still, to keep myself strong with all that, would then shift into dreaming for what I now actually DO HAVE. So. When I walked enough life to learn it all, I then got to be the teacher, manifesting the things I needed to feel supported, valued, and loved. But it all started from within me and it all ignited from my dreams. So I tell you what. KEEP DREAMING. Dreams come true. They do. They just take time to build in our hearts.
Sending you heap loads of blessings of support and energy to shift you to the other side!
moon phase of the day
PULL BACK TO PROCESS. One week after the Full Moon we shift into a two week period of inward focus. This first week is where we just pull back to see what we understand better about the last two weeks of movement. This is almost like a retrograde because it pulls you inward and you can feel like you are going backwards – even though you are not. Just as the plant is not going backwards in the winter while underground – but rather it is the inward that comes before the next outward. A resting space. So rest and be okay with this. We are SELF CENTERED right now so don’t expect others to see you because they are focused on themselves – processing.
moon of the day
Action! Ready to go! Abrupt situations. Energy moving towards SOMETHING.
0: Notice that something is returning or coming full circle.You have been here before.
2: Needing to come together and bridge two perspectives. Work to create an understanding or peace from what is going on around you.