monday vibes (26 august) — How does this awareness hit you?
Not yet is
Lift your spirits
You are getting closer.
THIS WEEK we change something that utterly changes every other thing in our lives. So we start this week with ultra-awareness knowing that we DO need to pay attention to everything slamming into us, rubbing us raw, or even rubbing us just right.
Things match up to bring us a feeling and that feeling deals with something deeper that is related to a need unfulfilled where now you seek out and try to attain, but probably fail and keep pushing away what you really want, or keep attracting the very thing that keeps you from ever getting what you really want.
So we connect with others to feel something inside, to WAKE UP to how we actually do something after the feeling comes where we then diminish or limit or lose our hope in what before we thought could happen.
So we are in a BIG TIME pattern of yours and THIS THING has got to change and its inside you but it was sort of implanted by another or another experience, and we kind of need to nose dive into something in order to uncover the rock that we are being asked to notice FROM the feeling and how it changes us.
We also are not to run from the feeling. We are patterned to run, to escape, to make excuses and to only focus on other things besides what COULD actually bring things into order. We muddy ourselves all up in wanting to RUN from any pain or limitation or struggle or challenge. Not many people run INTO things with OKAY THEN, BRING IT! We instead collapse and start spiraling out of control like on a slippery slope.
And THAT is not Kali and not remembering that you DO have the strength to get though ANY situation and that these things on our path are just what happens, THEY HAPPEN, and just like the car accident of last week where something hit something, and that hit something else – they played a purpose in doing it that way.
The Universe is orchestrating this energetic dance with the planets and all of us intermingling and our Karma and TIME PASSING. So if not for those other things, we could not be here now with these particular things. All is perfect in fact. It is JUST that our interpretation of things or how we have learned to process and deal with things was programmed to keep us believing or acting like we are not capable, or that maybe like with a bowling bowl we ARE the pin that gets hit and taken down. Maybe we should expect to be taken down from a strike because others have stories of it and we have fears of it – so we should brace for failure. Right? NO. You are to be the pin that stands through it all.
We fall too easily and have forgotten that Kali is SO badass and STRONG with all those fancy tools! No Goddess is more badass than Kali and it’s why she is the messenger of my new website coming soon – yes, still not yet, I know… but we are CLOSE – and what I am working on is everything to me because I am a writer and teacher and I need a website that I LOVE so I can share like a maniac like I used to do on my last website in 2015.
So that we are over 4 years in delay on my relaunch now, at least, is something I am totally okay with. And actually, we can segway into this because what I felt when I wrote that was actually a heavy feeling in my body as I processed the 4 years and still not yet and STILL waiting and STILL talking about it but not following through on my words.
So this is the message for the day playing out in me, because that hit me and then I sort of nosedive into the reality of the journey of the time, but just as we are to do this week, we reprogram something that actually is fucking us up.
And ME holding that FEELING when I think about this process – is not the energy of truth or reality when we do get to the moment I finally launch. But has the feeling been what has delayed my launch? Have I drawn in obstacles and more learning experiences in patience because of the negative feels of BUT NOT YET? Probably. And because of that I start today noticing the feeling, and now I shift to remembering that time is our friend and the Universe is co-creating with us. So how does this awareness need to hit you?
Sending you heap loads of blessings of support and energy to shift you to the other side!
moon phase of the day
PULL BACK TO PROCESS.One week after the Full Moon we shift into a two week period of inward focus. This first week is where we just pull back to see what we understand better about the last two weeks of movement. This is almost like a retrograde because it pulls you inward and you can feel like you are going backwards – even though you are not. Just as the plant is not going backwards in the winter while underground – but rather it is the inward that comes before the next outward. A resting space. So rest and be okay with this. We are SELF CENTERED right now so don’t expect others to see you because they are focused on themselves – processing.
moon of the day
Feeling emotional. Feeling sensitive.
Craving comfort. Pulling into yourself.
1: Energy is moving towards and igniting the themes of the other numbers.
2: Needing to come together and bridge two perspectives. Work to create an understanding or peace from what is going on around you.
8: Hold the Galactic Vision! Be positive and keep your eyes on the horizon. What you are putting out there is coming RIGHT BACK your way!