saturday vibes (15 june) — do you put up walls?
Don’t wanna be walls.
They are wounds waiting to be healed
And shields waiting to reveal
a misunderstood heart.
That wants to be seen.
So now we go into a bit of a different time, for a few days at least, where things are coming together VERY effortlessly, even though there may be a push or a shove to the energy that gets things moving.
So if someone comes and does something that shocks you or is not what you want or even IS, it’s clear that this one has movement to it and we will come closer or move away and this is FOR US – for our own sanity and for us having boundaries that make it clear on what we will or will not allow into our personal spaces. The energy moves, but it is us choosing to move it further in the direction it is going based on stating and honoring YOUR BOUNDARIES.
We are growing more confident in knowing we have a voice that needs to speak and that it is connected to a body that KNOWS. So. Being programmed to not speak your truth or to not speak up goes against how you were naturally built to be. Being programmed to stifle who you really are and to mold into another person, seeking out what you were programmed to seek, keeps you like wearing pantyhose over your face – its not really you, it’s a manipulated and molded version of you – and its uncomfortable!!
So at this time we are rising in some way to a new perspective that somehow sets our hearts free where we will be loving things more, based on the decision we make that comes from our bodies speaking the truth.
You also may have a test with another, and this will be like the gateway drug, but this test deals with something that you were not in abundance with and possibly knew scarcity or empty or neglect or let down, but this thing where you GOT NOT is where now you turn some situation around through being an example of seeing how the other is just acting from that GOT NOT point of view and that superficial thing is not all there is. So for example, if you were not loved by your mother, today something may happen with another where you see they know the same thing and they are acting out and something about BEING like a mother to them fixes the flow and friction.
As you all know I started this somatic trauma therapy with Ruby Jo Walker a few months ago because I recognized that when I am interested in someone, which oh so rarely happens, but I tend to look like I am disinterested because I was conditioned to believe no one will love me or find me attractive so when our eyes meet, I think why would they ever like me, I’m being delusional. And then they think I don’t like them so they move on, and as my pattern goes, they usually meet someone real quick after meeting me. So the other part of the pattern is then seeing not being chosen, or being the losing one again.
And I met this guy last month who certainly gives mixed messages but he mentioned he can’t help but put up a wall right up until he takes it down. And after saying that line he talks about this great date he had with this other woman.
And seriously, I had no clue where I stood in his eyes for a few weeks, even though we texted most days because we flow naturally — but when he mentioned he puts up walls, I realized that is WHAT I DO — but I didn’t call it a wall! I never called it a wall.
But him using that word opened me to my wound reaction and it opened me to going a bit slower and not judging what I was seeing but rather doing with him what I wished a guy would have done with me– see over the wall I was putting up SEEING that it a part of me not wanting to be hurt but clearing saying you do affect me and there is something here.
But without that therapy and understanding my wounds and how they express to others, I would have kept him in friendzone, or deadzone, and never let him out and never gotten to the places we are being allowed now – because his signs didn’t show he was interested in me. It was more like I was the last thing he wanted.
And I recognized every step of the way that we have to look at people different. We have to listen different. We have to slow down with what we think, and feel things more, because what got me to slow down was that my feelings were that there WAS some affinity there and I was kind of like, lets baby step our way to it but learn when the walls go up because they go up ultimately when they actually DON’T want to. We need to be the wiser to this human trait and handle others in new ways based on what we have healed, or recognize, within ourselves first.
Sending you heap loads of blessings of support and energy to shift you to the other side!
moon phase of the day
START TO GET THE BALL ROLLING. One week after the New Moon we reach the bottom of the moon mapping wheel as we shift into the left side. This means we now are in a two week period where we are encouraged to GET THINGS GOING. This is when you want to launch, share things, get out there and show them what you got.
moon of the day
Feeling happy. Feeling hopeful.
Thinking about dreams. Wanting to grow.
2: Needing to come together and bridge two perspectives. Work to create an understanding or peace from what is going on around you.
4: This is a day that a lesson will be learned! This number tends to bring tests and situations that don’t feel all that wonderful. You are learning something here.
6: Being compassionate is required today. Be LOVE no matter what comes up!