sunday vibes (31 march) — Bottom line, division hurts.
It’s time to learn a real big thing
and to see that it was the defense
of who you actually want to be.
Don’t fight it
and be set free.
There is a better you waiting to shine true.
It’s all just tarnish
and tarnish can be removed.
So there is another bit of warning here but what I am hearing is that we all are going through a very tight tunnel with window points all along it — probably starting tomorrow and for about 3 days. This is when we are going to see things from the past 5 to 7 years that imprinted us and got us following a pattern into the dark that now we must rise out of.
This is all about the themes we have been in and about letting something go. What I can see is that we have to stay out of our mental spaces because we have this loop that takes us to this escape route that is not for our good because we can’t complete this process and therefore shift into a higher manifestation through learning.
If you have never been to San Francisco you can wonder what it will be like, but when you do finally go, YOU KNOW. So use that as a reference to calm your mind from thinking it does know best. IT DOES NOT. This whole year so far is getting us good and tuned to our bodies’ feelings that show us when you are not good for me, this thought process is not good for me, this way of not honoring my feelings is not good for me, this environment and abuse is not good for me, this way of eating is not good for me, this way of not taking care of my body is not good for me…
We feel it ALL and we have in an accelerated fashion for the past month. Y’all are coming out war torn from the battle of a big storm. I see you all with battered shreds of clothing and matted down hair and some cuts and bruises even – because DUDE. It has been brutal on so many fronts.
But, my loves, please tune into how much more your heart feels about things and how you want so much more peace and kindness and healing and understanding BECAUSE of how awful it feels to be so divided. It hurts to feel like the loser. What I most remember growing up with a bully mother was that I was always SO embarrassed. It was so embarrassing to always be put down in front of my brother when he never heard a single word like that. This one time my brother told my mom that a friend of mine laughed at his new crewcut haircut, which I wasn’t even around when it happened, but ¼ second later she responds with — well did you tell her that your sister is as fat as a house? — And I was. I was chubby because she didn’t touch or hold me and only shamed me NON-STOP. Yeah, I was chubby because food was my comfort and the only love I got in my home foundation which was to be my safe and supportive place.
That division HURT. This Pisces cried like a baby every single day because it hurt so much to be alone and have no one on my team – and to really not understand what was going on and why this was allowed to be. And that occurrence was the one and only time my brother was even shocked and I could see he felt bad for me. But otherwise he didn’t want to rock his boat so he enjoyed being on the privileged team. It felt good to always win and always be the good one so why put any stop or awareness into the division?
This is why I also know that I would much rather love you than hate you. I know that dividing us is not doing any of us any good – even if you think it a fair payback from the wounded perspective. In my earlier career I was approached privately several times about not being inclusive and needing to learn to be – which I now understand what they meant but I didn’t in 2013 when they brought the message to me – I had never even heard the word.
And how conscious were we back then that we WOULD politely bring it up in a private message and gracefully let me know that I was doing something wrong – that I DID because I grew up in a divided home so I naturally expressed my wound through creating a division with others and feeling good being on the winning team. Now we try to shame people without ever starting from a conscious, heart-focused AND HEALING approach.
But if those people had slammed me disrespectfully I probably wouldn’t have heard them, right? Because I would have only tuned into their wounded need to WANT to hurt me. These bringers of the message were not wounded so they politely just let me know with love in their hearts — and seeing how the world is now, I really appreciate that. It made a difference and we all can make that same difference through not taking the escape route.
We don’t have to respond in the loop of the defense of our pain. But we can use that loop of pain to create the passion to shoot for peace and understanding and a better way to teach to our children. Or should we teach the children to continue to support the division? The children are watching. Give that a think.
Sending you heap loads of blessings for good vibes shifting you to the other side!
moon phase of the day
PULL BACK TO PROCESS. One week after the Full Moon we shift into a two week period of inward focus. This first week is where we just pull back to see what we understand better about the last two weeks of movement. This is almost like a retrograde because it pulls you inward and you can feel like you are going backwards – even though you are not. Just as the plant is not going backwards in the winter while underground – but rather it is the inward that comes before the next outward. A resting space. So rest and be okay with this. We are SELF CENTERED right now so don’t expect others to see you because they are focused on themselves – processing.
moon of the day
Thinking about upgrading. Feeling detached. Wanting to improve. Discovering solutions.
1: Energy is moving towardsand igniting the themes of the other numbers.
8: Hold the Galactic Vision! Be positive and keep your eyes on the horizon. What you are putting out there is coming RIGHT BACK your way!
9: Something is endingand needing to be released. Have trust even though things feel confusing. Give away in order to receive.